Woah.

It has been a long ass time since I updated. And a lot of shit's happened.

Let's see...I'll leave all the biggies a mystery and continue like I never left.

Yesterday I went shopping with Brittany, all over downtown Wichita. Mostly antique malls, but also a glass shop, a second-hand store and TJ-Max. I will post pics of the lovely loot later. Brittany is very fun to shop with.

Today I am hoping that my sweetheart will wake up early maybe so we can have a merry adventure wandering all over town.

Ladida~

Ah huh.

I guess I'd be lying if I said that school hasn't been interesting. Mostly the fact that I'm finally seeing people again. I have a habit of disappearing in the summer. I prefer being alone to making plans to hanging out with people.

But it is nice to see people like Michelle and Taylor and Brittany again. I dubbed Taylor "Sparkles" after she found a crapload of random glitter in her purse. In retaliation, I am now "Bedazzle" because I like to talk about all the random things I'd bedazzle if I had a bedazzler.

Oh and there's the lame part where I sit in World Studies and write notes until my hand bleeds but IT'S OKAY I'LL LIVE.

:3

Oh me, oh my!

First day of school. So the fact that I am an awkward nerd who can't control her voice level has not changed, good to know. OH, and I am feeling better even though I had a terrid (terrible + horrid) nightmare last night. It's okay, though! Even though my subconscious is terridly graphic and disturbing.

Oh, and my chem teacher is a hippy. I think I shall get along fine with her.
Oh, and I have the same lunch as everybody awesome.

Today is a good day~

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WALL O' TEXT, AHOY!~
Easily affected by her environment and readily moved by the emotions of others. Seeks congenial relationships and an occupation which will promote them. Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and of separation from others. Believes that life still has far more to offer and that she may miss her share of experiences if she fails to make the best use of every opportunity. She therefore pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity and commits herself deeply and readily. Feels herself to be completely competent in any field in which she engages, and can sometimes be considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome. Circumstances are forcing her to compromise, to restrain her demands and hopes, and to forgo for the time being some of the things she wants. Feels trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way of gaining relief. Able to achieve satisfaction from sexual activity. Needs to feel identified with someone or something and wishes to win support by her charm and amiability. Sentimental and yearns for a romantic tenderness. Has a fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants. This leads her to employ great personal charm in her dealings with others, hoping that this will make it easier for her to reach her objectives. Seeks to avoid criticism and to prevent restriction of her freedom to act, and to decide for herself by the exercise of great personal charm in her dealings with others.

Huh.

I think I am going to take this quiz thingers from this thing once a week or something and post the results, see if they change. It could be interesting.

Your Existing Situation
Attracted by anything new, modern, or intriguing. Liable to the bored by the humdrum, the ordinary, or the traditional.

Your Stress Sources
The tenacity and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties has become weakened. Feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground. She feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to her and from which she wants to escape, but she feels unable to make the necessary decision.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Emotionally inhibited. Feels forced to compromise, making it difficult for her to form a stable emotional attachment.
Feels trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way of gaining relief. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity providing no turmoil or emotional agitation is involved.

Your Desired Objective
Longs for sensitive and sympathetic understanding and wants to protect herself against argument, conflict, or any exhausting stresses.

Your Actual Problem
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She attempts to escape into a substitute world in which things are more nearly as she desires them to be.

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So anyways. School starts tomorrow, joy of joys. ExceptIdon'twanttogo. I want to keep sitting around doing nothingggggg.

Oh, and I need people to call but I don't want to be paranoid so I'm going to hide in my closet and pretend I'm a fluffy stuffed animal now.

I'm such a fucking genius.

And this is what I want to do today.

aaggghh why am I always so paranoid?

this

this made me giggle,because--
it is true

(i am not done;
being ee cummings)

today

today i am pretending
you are probably wondering,,
wondering just what i am
going
to be pretending;(and i
will tell you;dont i always?)

i am pretending
that i am ee cummings,because
that is what you do

when you are a silly girl --
Like me.