Ah huh.

I guess I'd be lying if I said that school hasn't been interesting. Mostly the fact that I'm finally seeing people again. I have a habit of disappearing in the summer. I prefer being alone to making plans to hanging out with people.

But it is nice to see people like Michelle and Taylor and Brittany again. I dubbed Taylor "Sparkles" after she found a crapload of random glitter in her purse. In retaliation, I am now "Bedazzle" because I like to talk about all the random things I'd bedazzle if I had a bedazzler.

Oh and there's the lame part where I sit in World Studies and write notes until my hand bleeds but IT'S OKAY I'LL LIVE.

:3

Oh me, oh my!

First day of school. So the fact that I am an awkward nerd who can't control her voice level has not changed, good to know. OH, and I am feeling better even though I had a terrid (terrible + horrid) nightmare last night. It's okay, though! Even though my subconscious is terridly graphic and disturbing.

Oh, and my chem teacher is a hippy. I think I shall get along fine with her.
Oh, and I have the same lunch as everybody awesome.

Today is a good day~

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WALL O' TEXT, AHOY!~
Easily affected by her environment and readily moved by the emotions of others. Seeks congenial relationships and an occupation which will promote them. Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and of separation from others. Believes that life still has far more to offer and that she may miss her share of experiences if she fails to make the best use of every opportunity. She therefore pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity and commits herself deeply and readily. Feels herself to be completely competent in any field in which she engages, and can sometimes be considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome. Circumstances are forcing her to compromise, to restrain her demands and hopes, and to forgo for the time being some of the things she wants. Feels trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way of gaining relief. Able to achieve satisfaction from sexual activity. Needs to feel identified with someone or something and wishes to win support by her charm and amiability. Sentimental and yearns for a romantic tenderness. Has a fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants. This leads her to employ great personal charm in her dealings with others, hoping that this will make it easier for her to reach her objectives. Seeks to avoid criticism and to prevent restriction of her freedom to act, and to decide for herself by the exercise of great personal charm in her dealings with others.

Huh.

I think I am going to take this quiz thingers from this thing once a week or something and post the results, see if they change. It could be interesting.

Your Existing Situation
Attracted by anything new, modern, or intriguing. Liable to the bored by the humdrum, the ordinary, or the traditional.

Your Stress Sources
The tenacity and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties has become weakened. Feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground. She feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to her and from which she wants to escape, but she feels unable to make the necessary decision.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Emotionally inhibited. Feels forced to compromise, making it difficult for her to form a stable emotional attachment.
Feels trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way of gaining relief. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity providing no turmoil or emotional agitation is involved.

Your Desired Objective
Longs for sensitive and sympathetic understanding and wants to protect herself against argument, conflict, or any exhausting stresses.

Your Actual Problem
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She attempts to escape into a substitute world in which things are more nearly as she desires them to be.

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So anyways. School starts tomorrow, joy of joys. ExceptIdon'twanttogo. I want to keep sitting around doing nothingggggg.

Oh, and I need people to call but I don't want to be paranoid so I'm going to hide in my closet and pretend I'm a fluffy stuffed animal now.

I'm such a fucking genius.

And this is what I want to do today.

aaggghh why am I always so paranoid?

this

this made me giggle,because--
it is true

(i am not done;
being ee cummings)

today

today i am pretending
you are probably wondering,,
wondering just what i am
going
to be pretending;(and i
will tell you;dont i always?)

i am pretending
that i am ee cummings,because
that is what you do

when you are a silly girl --
Like me.

Summer's Over

Summer officially ends on Thursday. And I think this one's been pretty good. On Saturday we headed out to the mall and shopped. Except no Orange Julius. Bawww that is the best part of the mall. :c

IT IS OKAY THOUGH.

Oh, and Old Settler's is this weekend. It's basically a carnival type thing. Funnel cakes and spinny rides and turtle races and lots of fun. Hehe.

I dunno, I don't think I'd have rather spent it doing anything else. Biking around, sitting in fields, throwing rocks, and doing basically nothing. Oh, and then school starts and takes all that fun away. Aw well. I'll live.

I think I'm going to define this summer with a playlist:

"Plastic Stars" by Freezepop: This one just feels like the beginning of summer felt. It just does.
"Summer Love" by JT: Because summer love is the best kind of love.
"The Con" by Tegan and Sara: Oh, another good song that I could not stop playing over and over. It's going to be one of the one's I'll listen to and think of these days with.
"Blue Orchid" by the White Stripes: Any drama is best described with this song. Oh, but it's never to horrible. And who needs a bass player anyways?
"Graduation" by Third Eye Blind: Something by Third Eye Blind always ends up on here when I make summer playlists. Or any playlist. They just have that kind of music.
"That Boy is All About Fun!" by Freezepop: It's a good one. And another one that is just good to listen to.

And I'm going to go back to watching Freaky Friday now.

Like a kid loves candy

Hah. Accurate.

Your Personality at 35,000 Says...

Deep down, you prefer spending time alone to spending time with others. You enjoy thinking more than talking. You are good with your place in the world. You are confident and comfortable with who you are. Your gift is having good ears. You are naturally musical, and you pick up foreign languages easily. You are inspired by what is possible. Real life is often too ordinary for you. It's very easy for you to feel happy. You can find peace with any situation.

The Personality Test at 35,000 Feet

Shut My Playboy Mouth

I've been playing around on Polyvore while listening to Lady Gaga's "Just Dance" on repeat. The following are the results.











Now I wish it were closer to my birthday/Christmas. Haha. Or that I had my own money.

Singin' doo ah diddy diddy

dum diddy doo...

So today I am trying to ignore the crappy 100+ degree weather. I'm doing this by eating milk and cookies. It is the best comfort food ever, and as of late I have taken up eating it for breakfast. Not healthy but, hey, who cares? Hah.

And I've been enjoying playing with my hair and waking up with a bedhead and keeping it that way for the entire day, because it's silly and fun.



I just LOVE how happy Paul Jones is to be singing such a silly song. And I can't help but laugh and sing along.


Oh, and I've gotten my schedule for school. I got into psychology, which is awesome because that is apparently a harder class for sophomores to get into. But yay for me. I also have Art 2. Which will be oh so fun and I can't wait for school to start.


Oh, and, as of now, there are 80 days left.

Hello again

So I think I am going to stay inside. It's been raining so much, and it's not even the kind that you can jump in. It is the kind of rain that last for days and makes everything muddy. It's not fun. It is very not.

Also I think my library books are overdue. This is annoying because I'm never going to remember to return them until they send a letter in the mail and it's what happens everytime. And, to top it off, I babysat and lost 20 dollars of the money I made. Damnit.

The babysitting itself was fun, though. Me and my cousin had fun with an ice cream party, where we put all sorts of toppings on it. We didn't even like blueberries but we put it on anyways, along with honey and all sorts of things, all while dancing. He recommended "I Like To Move It" so we played that and then goofed off on the trampoline. Haha. And then I jumped in the middle of the night by myself and watched storm clouds in the distance, lightning and all. He watched Indiana Jones until he fell asleep, it was adorable.

Falala, I think I'm going to pretend to run away. Or fake my own death. Just because.

A List of Things That are Wonderful

1. Eating things from the fridge that you are not supposed to eat. Such as a fingerful of chocolate frosting from a cake that is for your mother's party tomorrow, or a sneak peak at the leftovers. Late night snacking, mmmm. <3 style="font-weight: bold;">Imogen Heap. One of my heroines. She does what she likes, makes music as she likes it, and has fun. I love her, I love her freedom, and I love her way of sound and life.

3. Getting a big, long skirt and walking barefoot down the middle of the street. Oh, it is so free. Walk walk walking down the street, it is so empty, and oh so lovely. The trees framing the street so well.

4. Water. Do not ever take for granted the taste of a big old mug of warm water, maybe a dash of sugar. And then a nice old bubble bath, which would be impossible without our lovely friend, H2O.

5. Cheering people up. I'm not saying that having depressed friends is fun, it's not. But the feeling that somebody is happier, somebody has risen above a depression, and you got to watch them do it. It's a nice feeling.

Oh, and the past four days for me have been fun. I've made a desicion to quit my whining about how boring everything is just because I'm not creative enough to come up with interesting things to do on my own. So I've gotten huge stacks of interesting books from the library, I've drawn murals on the street with chalk, and I've run away only not really. I've learned to take off my bra without taking off my shirt, I've learned how to make hair dye stay in my hair for longer. I've discovered new music, and I've danced like an idiot about the house. I've pretended I was a raver and I've pretended I was a hippie. I am having fun. I am not going to let this summer let go.

But at the same time, I'd love it if the next 3 months just flew by. I want them to go away and never come back. I want to run into the terminal and fly into him an hold on and never let go and that's all I want. And I know I said (to myself) that I would not mention lovers on these dumb things anymore, but it's true.

So, summer. Are you going to work with me or against me? HMMM?

I'm rather conflicted for a 15 year old!

WAAAAHMBULANCE

So the past few days have been less than interesting. A lot less. I'm getting tired of this dumb house and all the boring shit that never happens. Goddamn.

But on Friday I went to work with my mom. That wasn't too bad, watched What's Eating Gilbert Grape, which is now on my "favourite movies ever" list. Seriously, it's great. I can't believe it took me so long to finally getting around to seeing it. Glad I did.

Then got my hair cut all short. It's rad. I love it. I never like my haircuts at first, ever. They always have to grow on me. I always come around. It's hilarious. EVERY TIME. Except for that one time where I let a girl kicked out of beauty school do my hair. That time it fucking sucked and there was nothing I could do about it. Took like a year to grow out, too, daaamn.

And that's bout it.

Summer Sucks.

It's trueee. Summer's the worst season. Everything's so hot and sticky and blagh. I can't wait for fall and winter, there's so much more going on. It's just boring.

On the other hand, I picked up a very flowy and wonderful summer dress the other day at the thrift store. It has the most wonderful print, too. It needs a bit of fixing on the upper half since I don't have the boobsies to fill it out, but it's still excellent.

Oh, so wonderful~

And proof that it needs some fixing. Haha.

Other than that, I haven't done too much. All of the bike riding, but that's nothing new.


And I am getting my hair cut on Friday. It shall be short and awesome. I'm thinking of something along the lines of Sherri DuPree?

Murals and etc.

Went to an open house at the library. I have no idea why it's called that since the library's always open? But it was interesting, it was like a party. They were showing off a mural they had just finished in the children's section. It was dedicated to my late Grandmother, who had worked there for as long as I can remember, really. She was so wonderful, and I miss her. She instilled a love of reading in me and I can never thank her enough for that.

I did get a few books while I was there. And a cookie. Because it was a party and you can't have a party without M&M cookies. Delicious!~



In other news, Tegan & Sara's "The Con" is excellent. Really, I can not get enough of this album. Check it out.

Image Dump

I feel I must share the fodder in my aptly named "eye candy" folder. Oh ho ho, how wondrous!


Hair inspiration, I'm planning on dying it purple the next chance I get, haha. Along with that, there's some 80's style pop art, a super hot vintage dress that makes me want to flip, and a girly that sure knows how to rock the scarf.

BIG UPS.

I'm gunna try this dumb blog thing again.